Thursday, February 18, 2010

Friends

What is the meaning of friends? "A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts" is what says when I googled. Sounds simple eh? But sometimes, friendships can be as complicating as a couple's relationship. I've always been frank, straightforward, and honest towards my best of friends, and I will never ever wanna hurt them, or see them getting hurt by others. I just want my friends to be happy, and I'll be happy too. Perhaps, I was too "kaypo" trying too hard to make my friends happy, and find the sort of happiness that they want for them, and in turn, sometimes, unexpected situations arises, and the whole thing back fired, and I indirectly caused hurt to my friends, and to myself as well.

I'm sorta trying to change myself now, trying to be less "bo chup" towards my friends, my loved ones, because, ignorance is always a bliss. But its hard, when my best of friends come to me seeking for a listening ear, complaining to me, I can't help but would really love to help. So, ya, still, easy to say, difficult to do.

I've neither heard nor seen someone who was very dear to me for quite some time, and it just feels that, something, a part of me, seemed to be missing, and I feel so empty. My so called "telepathic twin". Its funny how our character, and daily habits are worlds apart, yet, we used to love each other so much, and how well we could seemed to read each other's mind, all the time. I miss her, very much.

I'm not sure if things will be back to the way they were, but, I really hope they do.

If YOU, my telepathic twin, read this, text me, I miss you so much. And my arms are always still opened and waiting for you to come back to me. Alright, this might sound very homo, but, this is how much I love you, and miss you. And yet, the sometimes ego me, don't really know how to approach you. So ya, do text me if you had missed me as much. If not, I'll know, what this friendship meant to you, but I'll still miss you and love you as much, and understand that, perhaps, I wasn't good enough for you, or I couldn't live up to your expectations as you expected me to behave as a friend to you.